Conversations with God

I am sitting here at Great Bridge park and I am listening to “Holy Spirit Rain Down” by Hillsong and I am just praying that Your Holy Spirit rains down in my life. 

Come and  change my life as I stand on your word. 

God I need you, badly. 

I’m sitting here searching through my phone trying to find someone to give me validation or a word of encouragement, and then a soft breeze blows by and God reminds me that He is the only validation I need. He is the only attention I need to seek. 

God you are really speaking into my life at this moment. You are forming my identity in you. You are molding me and making me into the person you want me to be. 

I need those encouraging people in my life, but I also need You more. I need Your love. I need Your affection. I need some alone time with You where you can be God and I can be me and the weight of the world isn’t sitting on my shoulders like Atlas who shrugged.  

You are so much bigger than the world I struggle to carry on my back and if I would only turn around and lay it at your feet you will pick it up and you will transform it. 

God, you are here in this moment as I listen to the song on repeat. Your Holy Spirit is raining down on me. Now I just need to get into your word and really read about Jesus’ life and how he faced life on Earth because if I look to You and I continue to look to You, I can’t go wrong. 

I keep feeling like I am making mistakes and I am not “doing” life right but that’s not it. I just need to follow where you are leading me. Today starts a brand new day. 

I trust you to guide me, to protect me and to lead me. I give my life to you and I surrender it all. I need you in my life all day every day. 

I don’t want this to be a thing where I’m going through the motions and that’s where your fruit of self discipline is absolutely necessary. I need to read your word daily. I need to understand who exactly You are so I can understand who You have created me to be. 

I know there’s so much in my past that I have to confront and go to war with... but today I am thankful for your abundant grace that you are pouring out on my life.